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2010-10-20 08:49 pm

More please!

Why is it that things always need to be replaced all at once?

Things I need:

- A new camera (a split second encounter with sand and sea was the death of mine)
- A new ipod (it's been arguing with my laptop for months now, and I had to reset it getting on for 10 times the other day. It's almost 6 years old, it's getting on a bit)
- A new tv (I can't even connect my dvd player to it, it used to have to be plugged in via my video player, but that's broken now so I refused to bring it with me when I left home. Also it's fuzzy and I want lovely clear freeview)
- A new electric toothbrush (it barely lasts long enough to brush my teeth once. At least this is affordable)
- A new phone (this one is not desperate, but the battery barely lasts a day anymore, so by the time I've managed to get all of the above, this will definitely be needed)
- A new box of Rainbow Nerds (I've almost run out! Time to return to America?)

I think that is all. Oh, a new coat as well - a long, winter-friendly one. And a mirror, I've been living here for 9 and a half months and I still only have a hand mirror. One day it would be nice to have a job that meant I could afford things.

Today is the first time I have updated two days in a row for just over a year. Yay me.
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2010-10-19 10:43 pm

Returning to a world I once knew

Once again it's been a while. And once again I'm going to try to start updating more regularly. Well, it's worth the attempt anyway.

Recently life has been exciting. I went to Florida and visited Hogwarts (lovelovelove), came home again and saw John Simm in Hamlet, and then went to see the Live Doctor Who monster thing.

And now life has returned to it's normal boring state... and that's when I decide to start updating again. Oops.
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2010-02-17 10:08 pm

Progression

Fast forward a few months since my last update, and I've got the job which I was then waiting to have the interview for.

Been employed for about a month and a half now, and getting on with it quite happily. Not giving too much thought to the future, but just seeing how things fall if I let them settle in this new pattern for a while.

So I'm now living with 3 girls who were all strangers until we moved in with each other at the beginning of the year, and working as a visitor assistant at a museum, which basically involves monitoring people in the galleries, working in the shop, and being the receptionist on the front desk.

Today I had my second one-to-one meeting with my manager (in which she called me the ideal Visitor Assistant - yay for being good at my job!), and tomorrow is both payday (much needed), and meal out with work people. The first time I will have seen everyone socially, tis quite exciting.

Very happy to be where I am now, rather than where I was last time I updated.
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2009-11-05 10:51 pm

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I find having an interview in the foreseeable future really does put me off applying for other things. There's such a 'it could all just be pointless' feeling about it, and so I don't bother. Which is a bad idea if I don't get this job, but perfectly sensible if I do.

There does seem to be a lack of suitable jobs this week though, so it's not entirely due to my laziness. And I have been working on graduate scheme applications a bit, but it's so unlikely that I'd get on any of them that it borders on pointless anyway.

So, have I been working on writing for NaNo with my spare time? Well, not really at all. What I have been doing is watching the first series of ER. I'm not sure when I first started watching it on tv, but it certainly wasn't this far back. Getting a job really would disrupt such plans.

Possibly seeing the boyfriend this weekend, well, Friday-Tuesday. I'm not entirely sure he realised tomorrow is Friday though because I sent him a text to check that's what he meant, and he hasn't replied since. Silly boy. Didn't think I was going to see him til my interview, very exciting.

A man on Question Time is making the sound on my TV go funny.
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2009-11-03 11:24 pm

Progress... hopefully it will progress further still (52 days to go)

I've got an interview!!

It's for the museum job I mentioned a few days ago - so excited! Had to phone to arrange a time, and the woman told me to go to the 'entrance on Mushroom Lane'. I love Mushroom Lane, I used to walk down it everyday because, well, who wouldn't want to walk down a road with that name? I used to peek in their staff room. They have a Doctor Who poster up in there.

The museum used to have bees, but they suffered the Great Bee Death... now they have empty hives. And they store my favourite type of rock (mica - it's a rock you can peel) in the kind of trays we had in first school. And the have the most adorable little bug costumes for children to dress up in. And this kitchen area where you can open the drawers and it has all the insects where they might be hiding in your own kitchen. I could rave about it for ages.

This is one of the few times when I can be excited about the specific job and the company, and not just be excited because it's a job in general.

So anyway, it's on 17th November and I literally Can Not Wait.

I can't quite face the possibility that I might not get it, I just have to.

Will have to make sure I don't shout something like 'Oh no! Your poor bees!'... I talk about them every time I go in there usually.

In other news my Nano-ing is going terribly... I've made a start at least, but it'll need some serious work over the next few days for me to not get too far behind.
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2009-10-30 09:56 pm

Stationary progress (55 days to go)

I have a semi-idea for NaNo! Don't know if it will work. It begins with two people running away to get married, in the middle they travel, and somewhere near the end they dance. But it's not necessarily happy ever after... I'm undecided. And I think it may be fantasy, allowing for more of a conclusion. Fantasy is more interesting to write, and no-one can criticise the inaccuracies that way! I'm not entirely sure about it yet. But it's a beginning, the start of an idea that I can ramble out for quite a few days, I just wonder if it can be extended over 50,000 words.

Applied for a job today. Looks like it would be pretty boring, but it would do just fine for a year or so... if only I could get it! I look forward to that day so I don't have to obsess about such things anymore. What a relief that will be.

Other than that today, like every other day, I have done nothing. Again I state: What an exciting life I lead!
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2009-10-29 09:11 pm

Attempt at Positive thinking (56 days to go)

Feeling a bit better about things today. Applied to three 'proper' jobs today. Proper meaning full time and in Sheffield. Doesn't take that much to impress me, but apparently it's still too much for me to succeed.

One of the jobs was for Sheffield Museums & Galleries and I would love it, so I have all of my fingers crossed, and most other body parts too.

Had a couple of vague ideas about what to write for NaNo, but nothing that would really go anywhere. Actually, I did have a decent horror idea, but I don't want to write horror... I think I would be awful at it, and the whole thing is enough of a challenge already!

Will spend more time thinking about it tomorrow. Poetry captures my imagination in a way that often gets me wondering about 'what happens next', so I think I'll get out my giant Pablo Neruda book (and crayons, the thought of that book makes me want to colour in) tomorrow and hope it inspires me.

Off to watch Defying Gravity now. Although I guess it might not be as good watching it at home on my own as it was lying in bed with my boyfriend. Oh, and job emails are coming in, must go and investigate them.
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2009-10-28 02:16 pm

Welcome to 5 years and £20,000 ago (57 days to go)

I think I have reached a new level of depression with the whole unemployment thing.

I just gave in an application for a Christmas job at a card shop in town.

I got home and cried.

One thing I don't want is a job in my home town. I want to leave, live and work in Sheffield. The idea of tying myself to this town with a job is physically painful.

I'm just hoping I never hear back from them. I've done exactly what I promised myself I'd never do and feels worse than I ever believed it could.
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2009-10-27 11:31 pm

Time is ticking (58 days to go)

Yesterday's trip to the dentist did not involve being told I need a filling. Yay! Having told him I'd had toothache though, he said I was probably grinding my teeth because I'm stressed. Oh joy, even my teeth are stressed. Do I get to have a job now please? Can't complain too much though, if you're on Job Seekers' Allowance you don't have to pay for a checkup.

New laptop is all set up and on the go! It's lovely being able to use the laptop's own keyboard, not have to worry about it being plugged in the whole time, and most of all, not have the screen half hanging off.

Took me ages to copy over all my music and photos etc, but now I have room for lots and lot more!

Job search update for the day: Started on Casework Assistant application. That is it. Oops. Also emailed boyfriend (he sent me a postcard from his brief trip to Whitby which arrived this morning, "Dear beloved, so far away...") with some jobs so he can get applying too.
Got job centre tomorrow, and I do believe they're going to ask me to come every week for a while from now on. Rubbish. Really hoped I'd have a job before it got to this stage.

Finally: Gordon Ramsey got plastic surgery on his face. I am both shocked and amused.

Finally finally: What will I do for subject lines when I no longer have (...days to go)? Oh, and I could really do with a userpic or two.
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2009-10-25 10:26 pm

Spending not earning (60 days to go)

Haven't done much that is in any way productive today.

Tomorrow I'm going to the dentist (hoping I don't need a filling, but thinking I might) and buying a new laptop (I've given up on waiting until I next get an interview).

...I'm hoping this will lead to continued 'doing things' and not just playing with my new toy. Seems doubtful, but the first application I'm going to do looks really straight forward, so I'm aiming on completion before lunch, leading to some guilt-free playing, and then investigating the next application on the list.

Plans are useful, and that is mine.

Talking of plans, I've been thinking of doing nanowrimo this year, because I have no education or job commitments, so I should be able to fit in writing it around applying for things. However, I have no idea what to write. Am hoping somehow a new laptop will help me get inspiration... somehow.
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2009-10-24 11:49 pm

The numbers fall so fast (61 days to go)

Back again, back to the world of job hunting and boredom.

Haven't heard from any of the jobs I applied for before I left, which is completely disheartening. The only thing I can do is keep trying, but I was feeling really positive, believing I'd have a letter waiting for me when I got home, and there was nothing. Have been through all the emails I got while I was away though, and have a list of about 5 things to apply for over the next couple of weeks.

Talked to my mum today about applying for local temping positions. Now that would be great if I could get a series of part time office things that each last a fortnight or so, but I highly doubt that will be possible. I really hate this being unemployed business (and it is like a business, a full time cycle of application and rejection). It's so awful to know how you want to live, realise that what you want is actually underselling your ability, and yet still fail at every turn.


Anyway, enough of that, it will only make me cry. Saw Bat For Lashes and Editors while I was away. Both were amazing, as was Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus which we went to see. A week of happiness amongst the months of boredom. Very necessary these breaks we have, though not at all productive.

A moment I will never forget, while stood on the station platform, on the way to see the Editors:

Me: I love that we met on 29th February, makes it seem magical
Him: I know, you could have proposed to me
Me: Would have seemed just I little forward, I think
Him: At least if you did it it would take the mystery out of it
Me: What do you mean?
Him: Well, I know what I'd say, it's just you we're waiting for

The feeling of knowing that someone you love wants to spend the rest of their life with you... really can't quite describe it. He's right though, I'm years away from being ready. Perhaps the leap year after next.
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2009-10-11 11:09 pm

Steps along the way (75 days to go)

Success! Well, not to get to excited, no major developments in the life of me, but today I completed two applications, so I'm pretty pleased with myself.

Finished the nhs one that I've been working on for a few days, then completed another for an admin job that I think is to do with student accommodation, but the advert was pretty vague so I'm not to sure. If anyone contacted me about that one I'd definitely need more info before taking it any further (although whatever they said it's highly unlikely I'd turn down an interview!)

For once I've run out of jobs to apply for so I'm going to have to do some searching tomorrow... although a couple with probably have turned up in my inbox by morning anyway.

Anyway, that is all. One day I hope to have a life and have something more exciting to update about.
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2009-10-10 11:18 am
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Delays (76 days to go)

Going to have to back-date this because I forgot to write an entry yesterday. I'm sure I can forgive myself.

Almost, almost finished the nhs application I've been working on. I'm really confident on all the essential criteria, but have none of the things that are just 'desirable'. This means it may well be pointless applying, but I can't not give it a shot. Also trying to make it more concise than my other applications, as I think they've been getting a bit long.

Had a good day yesterday. Went to the village my nan had lived in, went to her grave, and where my great-grandparents ashes had been buried, then went to the pub, a bit of a walk, and home to play a board game. I do like the occasional family day, even if it was just me and my parents.

Anyway, must got on with something productive so I have something to update with later (uhh, I mean 'tomorrow') as well.
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2009-10-09 10:07 pm
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Doing nothing, getting nowhere (77 days to go)

Well, I didn't update yesterday, and that's mostly because I didn't do anything productive yesterday.

And I haven't done much today... the easy part of a 'supporting information' section of an application, but nothing that couldn't be done in ten minutes. Oh dear.

I think I'm suffering lack of motivation because I've been trying hard for the past few weeks, but haven't heard anything from anyone. Still, giving up isn't going to help matters, so must get back into it again.

In better job news, my boyfriend had a telephone interview this afternoon. He'll find out how it went on Monday, and if he gets through then he'll have a face-to-face interview.

Off to the pub tomorrow with my parents. Tis one in the village my nan lived in, and it closed for a while, but has reopened so we're going for a visit. Havent been for years. Going to go for a walk up the hill as well if it isn't raining. All sounds like more distractions to me, but will find time to be good... hopefully.
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2009-10-07 10:25 pm

Irrelevant Obstacles (79 days to go)

Just started watching True Blood (is it any good? Anyone watch it?), so this will be a short one.

Sent off college job application. Was silly though, and you had to fill it in on a pdf thing so you only had limited space. I, however, needed more space for my supporting information ramblings, so I had to quickly finish it, print it all out, and get myself to the postbox. Deadline is tomorrow, which would have been fine if I could email it, but now i worry about it not getting there in time. Will have to phone them I think to check it's there, I'll only worry otherwise. Not that it matters, I highly doubt I'd get an interview out of it anyway.

Other than that I've been reading the boyfriend's dissertation (actually pretty interesting) and knitting a glove because it's finally getting cold. Winter weather, I love thee (apart from when you make me fall over, but that should be a while off yet).
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2009-10-06 10:09 pm

Returned to battle (80 days to go)

Back from many days at the boyfriend's house. Very much enjoyed it, and he apologised a lot for being a bit of an arse the day before I'd got there, which was good, got rid of any awkwardness that there may have been. Went to Chatsworth (as we always seem to do when I go there, and it's a lovely place, but personally I prefer variety) to see the sculptures which was really interesting. My favourites were Ariadna I by Manolo Valdés, and Buddha by Niki De Saint Phalle (and from behind), but there were lots of ace ones... and some which, in my opinion, were not so great.

Also went for a little walk on the Peaks which we really must do more often. Having a car and being able to drive would be oh so useful. Just generally had a lovely time with him, and yes his mum was as overly fussy as usual (the food is fine, but if you keep asking me if it's ok and then commenting on everything wrong with it, then it will mean I don't enjoy it. So be quiet) but I'm trying to be lovely and chatty anyway, even though that's something I find near impossible.

Anyway, job search progress: very little as I haven't been here. Heard nothing back from any job applications.
Since being home I've registered to a couple of job agencies. Don't hold out much hope for them, because I've got lots of other things to be applying for to be bothered chasing them up as well, but if they contact me then that's just grand. Half way through my application for the Sheffield college job. There are some gaps, I don't think I've had enough office experience really, but it's not too bad. Not going to give up on it, and will finish it off and send it tomorrow.

The parents have put an offer in on a house they like. And are putting down the price of our house again. Get us out of here now please! Lovely house and all, but moving would be an ideal chance to get rid of lots of stuff, and it would be great to do it before I get a job and move out. But however long it takes me to get a job, I'm sure they'll still be living here. It's been up for sale for years.
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2009-09-30 10:51 pm

Applications and arguments (86 days to go)

Quick update because the internet has been playing up so I'm not sure how long I've got.

Today I applied for 3 jobs. Yay.

1. The civil servant job I have been preparing for the past couple of days.

2&3. Two jobs that I found out about in emails I'd signed up for from jobsites. Both admin things, sound pretty similar but weren't very descriptive, so I'm not actually entirely sure what I've applied for!

Also went to the jobcentre and that was boring, but apparently they do help with the cost of college courses, so that could be useful.

Going to the boyfriend's house tomorrow so there'll be no further updates for a while. We did just have an argument over the medium of text messages though, which is a stupid thing to do at the best of times, but even more so because he was angry that I'll be leaving on Monday even though I told him that days ago. Whatever. Sorted now, he's visiting me on Tuesday, but not coming back with me on Monday because I'm seeing my best friend that night and I think he has a problem with the fact that I'm coming home 'early' to see her rather than staying at his for the night. All very ridiculous because, as I mentioned, I'd been planning on coming back Monday anyway, he was the only one who ever mentioned Tuesday. Just because I want to come home so I can apply for more jobs so I can move up there permanently and make myself happier, and he doesn't understand that because he doesn't seem to have any motivation to get a job and leave home.

Yeah, there are some issues there. It may or may not work out, but his lack of motivation in this and my utter determination are where we differ most I think. I get a lot of satisfaction from working hard and achieving things, and that's what I want from a boyfriend as well, so I guess I'm just going to have to encourage and hope for the best.
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2009-09-29 11:08 pm

Boredom, this is true boredom (87 days to go)

I'm so bored of being unemployed that I'm looking forward to tomorrow simply because it's the day that Sheffield council update their job vacancies. Fun life, eh?

Have almost finished filling in the civil service application. Got one more question to answer. Have to think of an example when I had 'drive'. ...I can't think of one. Still, it's only got to be 200 words long, so hopefully I'll think of something in the morning and send it off before I go to the jobcentre. Talking of, I really bloody hope it isn't too patronising. A group meeting about how to look for jobs? What do they think I've spent the last few months doing? Still, I have £60 left in my bank account (that is, £60 until I reach my overdraft limit, I actually have -£940) and a £22 train journey to make on Thursday, so I guess it's worth being patronised for £101.

Joined lots of communities earlier to make my reading page a bit more exciting. Not that that was difficult. Most of them don't seem to be updated very often, but still, that just seems to be the way here. I suppose it's all still relatively new. Friends would improve things, but I don't expect anyone to watch to read about my job search, so I'll treat myself to friends once I'm employed!

Once again, that is all the excitement I have to report.
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2009-09-28 11:27 pm

Step backs, and steps forward (88 days to go)

Well, today I discovered that a 'numerate' degree means one in which at least 50% of the modules were in some way mathematical. I knew psychology would be a stretch, but if that's how they decide it, then I'd have no chance. Not to worry though, I'd investigated government departments based in Sheffield earlier in the day and have already got another application up to the point at which I abandoned the other.

Also found out about an admin job at Sheffield College, which for some reason made me feel all funny when I discovered it. The job itself appears quite dull, and I don't really hold much stock by that kind of intuition. After all, the same people told me they had a 'good feeling' about both of the interviews I've had so far and that didn't exactly turn out to be accurate.

My goal of sending off a civil service application on Wednesday remains, and following that I'll print off the job description/person specification for the college admin job to take on the train with me when I go to visit my boyfriend. Would be good to have some notes ready for when I get back so completing the form won't be too bad.

Other activities of the day:
- Very, very nearly finished knitting my very first fingerless glove. In fact, I'm just sewing up the last seam. The finger holes are a little small, and I think the wrist will be a little too big, but it's wearable. Wearable in public in fact!
- Bought my first Christmas present of the year: the sequel to Dracula for my boyfriend. Now I just have to hope he/his parents don't see it and buy it for him... and think of however many other things to get him.
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2009-09-27 11:13 pm
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Why does eighty-something seems so much lower than ninty? (89 days to go)

Daily job progress:
Finished filling in all of GORS application form apart from the 'competencies' section, which I plan to work on over the next couple of days, so I can submit the application on Wednesday.
Also registered for emails of new civil service jobs in yorkshire, because whenever I talk to my Jobcentre woman she tells me I should be going for a job there.

Not done much today, but that's because I've spent most of the day (from 11am-7pm) sat outside chatting. Or, if you prefer, watching cricket. I haven't been for years because it used to bore me stupid, but my dad was presenting an award at the end of the match and so had to sit in a special area, so I went to keep my mum company. Also, someone who went to the same school as me was playing, so that was kind of interesting. Straight after the game he left and flew to South Africa to join the England team to replace someone who was injured. Would be far more exciting if he was someone I actually knew, rather than just recognise.

Going to visit the boyfriend on Thursday, so in the next few days I'm going to have to work hard on this job searching business to make up for the days of laziness which will follow.