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The numbers fall so fast (61 days to go)
Oct. 24th, 2009 11:49 pmBack again, back to the world of job hunting and boredom.
Haven't heard from any of the jobs I applied for before I left, which is completely disheartening. The only thing I can do is keep trying, but I was feeling really positive, believing I'd have a letter waiting for me when I got home, and there was nothing. Have been through all the emails I got while I was away though, and have a list of about 5 things to apply for over the next couple of weeks.
Talked to my mum today about applying for local temping positions. Now that would be great if I could get a series of part time office things that each last a fortnight or so, but I highly doubt that will be possible. I really hate this being unemployed business (and it is like a business, a full time cycle of application and rejection). It's so awful to know how you want to live, realise that what you want is actually underselling your ability, and yet still fail at every turn.
Anyway, enough of that, it will only make me cry. Saw Bat For Lashes and Editors while I was away. Both were amazing, as was Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus which we went to see. A week of happiness amongst the months of boredom. Very necessary these breaks we have, though not at all productive.
A moment I will never forget, while stood on the station platform, on the way to see the Editors:
Me: I love that we met on 29th February, makes it seem magical
Him: I know, you could have proposed to me
Me: Would have seemed just I little forward, I think
Him: At least if you did it it would take the mystery out of it
Me: What do you mean?
Him: Well, I know what I'd say, it's just you we're waiting for
The feeling of knowing that someone you love wants to spend the rest of their life with you... really can't quite describe it. He's right though, I'm years away from being ready. Perhaps the leap year after next.
Haven't heard from any of the jobs I applied for before I left, which is completely disheartening. The only thing I can do is keep trying, but I was feeling really positive, believing I'd have a letter waiting for me when I got home, and there was nothing. Have been through all the emails I got while I was away though, and have a list of about 5 things to apply for over the next couple of weeks.
Talked to my mum today about applying for local temping positions. Now that would be great if I could get a series of part time office things that each last a fortnight or so, but I highly doubt that will be possible. I really hate this being unemployed business (and it is like a business, a full time cycle of application and rejection). It's so awful to know how you want to live, realise that what you want is actually underselling your ability, and yet still fail at every turn.
Anyway, enough of that, it will only make me cry. Saw Bat For Lashes and Editors while I was away. Both were amazing, as was Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus which we went to see. A week of happiness amongst the months of boredom. Very necessary these breaks we have, though not at all productive.
A moment I will never forget, while stood on the station platform, on the way to see the Editors:
Me: I love that we met on 29th February, makes it seem magical
Him: I know, you could have proposed to me
Me: Would have seemed just I little forward, I think
Him: At least if you did it it would take the mystery out of it
Me: What do you mean?
Him: Well, I know what I'd say, it's just you we're waiting for
The feeling of knowing that someone you love wants to spend the rest of their life with you... really can't quite describe it. He's right though, I'm years away from being ready. Perhaps the leap year after next.
